Okay, so I’ve been a bit of a slacker on blogging for the past week, but I promise you I wasn’t a slacker on anything else. I’ve been working 7-8 hour shifts at the waterpark, which really exhausts you, I swear. The first day I didn’t blog was when I went to the psychiatrist at Mayo. It was just really hard, because I had to talk about how fucked up I was for two and a half hours. I still don’t think that I’m in an emotional state to blog about it yet. I’m doing pretty good though. The current diagnosis is Borderline Personality Disorder. I hate the name. I don’t think my personality is disordered. Geez! But I like the treatment. They increased my zoloft, since it was working and there were little or no side effect, and they prescribed a sleep aid. They want me to do this “Dialectical Behavioral Therapy,” so we got a workbook. It’s sort of about mindfulness and dealing with overwhelming emotions. Whatever.
My job’s really fun though. We rotate every 20 minutes, so it doesn’t get too boring. And there’s frequent breaks! And it’s fun to talk with people my own age again. Everyone’s really nice!
My sleep aid is kicking in, so I’m gonna snooze.
Okay, now my legs feel like cement. I guess my long run yesterday really wore me out. But I suppose it was good to move my legs. This run also sucked because I had to do it at seven in the morning, because I was working until six. Yuck. And it was sprinkling. I guess this is one of those runs that’s like having to eat your vegetables: you hate to, but you know it’s good for you, so you do.
This run felt soooo good! I was looking forward to running – instead of dreading it – during work, which I think really changed my attitude. Also, it was pretty chilly. I wore the long sleeve shirt I got at the Huntington Beach run. It’s light and breathable, perfect for the temperature. After days and days of really hot runs, it was really refreshing. About at 3.5 miles, someone painted in big capital letters across the road “ACID.” Mom and Dad say that there’s a worn “4:20” as well, which doesn’t make sense because 4:20 is when you smoke weed. I had to go over and down a big hill right before 4.0 miles. Then I had to turn around right away and do it again. I was really pushing myself, speed-wise. I didn’t feel like I was trudging along, I really felt like I was going somewhere! I also ran a little different mentally. Usually I try to focus on the present second, and just think about the trees or my book and stuff. But this time I focused on the present mile. All I needed to do was to get to the end of that mile. That made me run faster, which made me get there faster too.
5 x 0.62 at 6.5 mph | 9:15 pace | 2 min recovery | 5 min warmup and cooldown
This run felt really good. I felt like I totally couldn’t run that fast at the beginning, so that was good. But it did become easier and easier, once I got the hang of it. I put the fan on medium, I was that sweaty. I watched Minority Report with Tom Cruise, which is a really good movie to run to. The last few intervals were during a chase scene, which was perfect! My cooldown would have been longer, but I didn’t feel like jogging during a chase scene. I tested out my new binder. It’s breathable and has less material in the back. Worked out pretty good. I felt manly. And I could breathe! I decided Minority Report is film noir, based on what I learned in my class Detective in the City. I was thinking about the interesting coloring. How it is very similar to the images the precogs give. That made me think how it was kinda fuzzy in a way. You can’t see everything clearly. And that is because of the blinding bright light, which is a characteristic of noir. I guess it’s a misnomer? The only thing they got wrong is that it should have been set in LA.
At 1:00pm I went in for my job interview at the YMCA. The building’s like a hamster maze, it’s so hard to find your way around. It’s a lot more official and professional than the waterpark was. The interview had a lot more “what would you do if” scenarios. Like first aid, dealing with troublesome patrons, etc. It was kind of grueling. Then was the water skills portion. Which was also kind of grueling. Right away I had to swim 500 yds. That’s back and forth ten times! And I had already run today! Right away after I did that, I had to demonstrate holds on a mannequin. Then she threw the mannequin in the pool a couple times and I had to rescue it. The pool was a lot deeper than I thought. I ended up having some serious breathing difficulties. And my ears hurt a lot from the pressure! Once I couldn’t get all the way down to save the mannequin, and had to come up for air. It was super embarrassing, but I figured it would be better for me to breathe than the mannequin. I made an executive decision. Even after that, I still got hired as a substitute lifeguard! I got a shirt and everything!
At 4:00pm I had training at the waterpark. I first had to fill out all the paperwork. I-9’s and W-4’s and emergency contacts and all that. It was a bit of a pain. I spent a lot of the time chatting with the other people there. Some were lifeguards, many were managers of some sort, I think. They were very friendly and were asking questions and we were chatting. It was really cool, since I hadn’t done that in a long time, chatting. I only just now realized that I’m kind of terrified because I’m so out of practice making new friends. I’ve been reading Be Different by John Elder Robison, and I’m seeing more and more of my Asperger’s-like traits. It’s exhausting to think about my social flaws. I’m sure it will be okay though. I spent most of the time shadowing one of the supervisors, who was just lifeguarding then. I learned about all the stations, what the rules are. I learned about the slides, which was awesome! I can’t wait to go down. He says it wears off after a while, but for now the place is so exciting! I was good with asking questions. I left at 5:30, even though I could have stayed longer, because I had orientation at the Y.
At 6:00pm I had orientation at the Y. I’d talk more about it, but I’m poop and I have to get up at 5 tomorrow morning. It was really boring anyway. I did earn money today though. Yay!