Trauma warning: talks of cutting, but it’s mostly just about tattoos.
This is a list of all the tattoos that I want to get. There’s sort of a theme. Most of them are for covering up scars. Sort of a renewal thing. This is why some of them are in weird spots. But I’m waiting until I’ve been stable for more than a month. Not all of them are for covering up scars — I just really like tattoos. I really like thinking about Older Ben. I draw him a lot. Let’s see, reoccurring themes are renewal, growth, breathing, stability, and trees. I am a tree person.
Bands. Around my left wrist and around my right ankle, I am getting three solid black bands. Really simplistic. These was are very specifically to cover up scars. I really like the simplicity of it. Just really straightforward. I guess it won’t really cover them up, because the eye would be more attracted to those spots, but it does guarantee that I wouldn’t ever ever cut there again. (Ideally, I would never cut again anyway, but I can’t predict the places I’ll be in my future.)
|Bird. This is from a Calvin and Hobbes strip. It would go on the inside of my right wrist. Calvin and Hobbes means a lot to me. I grew up with it. Reading it at bedtime with my parents is how I learned how to read. The bird is sorta supposed to be about the brevity of life. That life doesn’t make sense, but it is beautiful, and I need to enjoy it while I can. Being preoccupied with death, or with the bad things about life, just makes what time I have here less enjoyable.|
Sleeve. I really want to get a full sleeve on my left arm. But I don’t have any real good solid ideas for what it would be. I’ve been thinking for a long time about getting a Strangler Fig wrapped around it. I think it would be super awesome. It would sorta represent Costa Rica, and the tropical rainforest research I like. But I haven’t been there too much, and I do need to leave space on my body for meaningful things that happen after I’m 20. My other idea is sort of a Jim Brandenburg collage, with loons and turtles and the northern lights. This isn’t a real solid idea either.
Wolf Print. I want to get matching wolf paw prints on either elbow. It will just be the outline, and not exactly right on the elbow, cause that would hurt. I’m sure it’ll hurt anyway, but I’d rather it not hurt more than necessary. Since I don’t know what I’m doing on my left arm, I would probably just get the one on my right side first so I can leave the other side a blank campus. I like wolves. I’m a dog person, in addition to a tree person. I’ve seen wolves more than a couple times in the Boundary Waters. They like to run like I do, and understand how much family means to me.